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life is a series of pre-determined events, carefully laid out by the force well beyond our grasp or understanding. every single decisions we make may appear as our own, but unbeknown to us, our minds have being programmed to make such decisions since time immemorial. or the events occuring around us have swayed us to make decisions that were always meant to be.

life can also be a blank white canvas that was entrusted upon us. we paint it as we wish and use whatever color we want. we are fully in control with every stroke of the brush, every drops of the paint. hence our life, is what we make of it. we are in charge of our own destiny.

so which one is it? if i believe in the first theory then what differentiates me from a schizophrenic who thinks that an alien has implanted a chip into his brain that control all of his actions, feelings and thoughts. if i support the later, then i may be going against my own faith and belief.

maybe there is no simple answer. it may neither be a or b. it may be both a and b.

i envy friends who have it all sorted out-work by 23, own a house by 24, married by 25, first child by 27, phd by 29 and so on. i have lived 24 years of my life without a carefully laid plans of my future. i sure can live another 24 years more without it. work hard, pounce on opportunities as they come along and make an informed decision as and when i need to. i will be alright. i guess.

so what if i remain undecided for now.